No wife and kids. Thank God. It would make my whole predicament that little bit harder.
I have MS status, but they everyone including the elders know i'm a loose canon. It's amazing how far a smile and a laugh can get you in this organisation.
What caused me to wake up? I just don't think I was ever fully asleep. Suppose it was an accumulation of a lot of things. I can't actually put my finger on the exact moment. It was very gradual. All I can say, is that when the penny dropped that I will not be living in a paradise and witness to billions of people dying, I was very relieved. I was the happiest I had been in years for a matter of fact, which says a lot for the mental condition of the members of this supposed "religion".
My view of fully awake is: Don't believe any of the bull shit that is fed to me at meetings. None of it.
Yes, there are good people in the org.
Yes, I have a lot of friends (conditional none the less)
Yes, they preach some things, if taken in the right way, can generate positive thinking...sometimes.
But does all that mean I accept the so called "biblical teaching" from the platform? No.
The jury is still out to weather I believe in a God.
